(I alluded to this in an earlier Facebook post.)
Here I stand
At the edge of the ocean
Is it the end of my control
Or the beginning of Your grace?
I wait along this silent shore
I tremble at the magnitude before me
Are You as great as I need You to be?
Will You surpass my deepest fears?
Will You surprise me, delight in me?
Will You save me from myself?
Can You rescue me?
If I take my foot from this sandy place,
will You be there
or will I fall?
The world does not offer freely;
can You understand my apprehensions?
Will You be more than my ultimate illusion?
I want to fear You
I desire to know You intimately
but are You all You say You are?
Will You be angry at my timidity,
though You offer a spirit of power?
Is a drab existence required
to best honor You?
Will You ever tire of my ceaseless questions?
Can Your peace overwhelm my mental turmoil?
I don’t understand You
I can’t comprehend Your love
But Lord, I want to trust You
I slowly raise a quivering hand
to reach out and touch You
I’m ashamed to feel my other fingers clinging to my side
“Greatness” cannot describe You
No word sufficiently captures You
I feel so small
But I long to be lost in Your arms
So I risk this step for Your embrace
For I would rather drown in Your grace
Than forever stand alone upon this shore